So I found some pictures:
Then I came across this photo:
And I thought: "Wow, that's great. That's how I felt." I felt like I was living in the walls inside my mind. Like there was an invisible barrier and I could only see my life, I couldn't do anything.
But the doc helped me with that and he's helping me still. He's helping me tear down the wall so I can live my life again.
One brick at a time.